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The charactars should be seen as metaphorical. 

The winged unicorn a whom was trapped in the underworld. The land of the eternal darkness. Her human self was very depressed and locked up. Her shadow counterpart the dragon was pissed roaring in anger. Destroying everything near her. The unicorn flew up spread her wings. Soaring in the sky.
The raven comes flying close to her.
-Where are you going?
- What are you up to?
-Just flying around.
-Really no goal No reason for this. The Raven lands on her neck grabbing her flying mane with her claws.
-You already know what my plans and you are already here to stop me.
-The raven cackles at that.
-You couldn't just ignore it me flying my attempt to escape.
-Just let me go
-Let me leave
-Leave this place of eternal darkness. I can't stand this eternal pain the suffering. A few tears fall from the unicorns Eyes. The Raven just looks at her.
-I would beg for your mercy. Beg to be released from the darkness, the eternal pain once again if it would help me. If it would affect you one bit. But it's like you don't care. Cause this isn't an awful place for you. Just for me.

-You are a not a prisoner here, Nightshade.The only jail is in your mind, child. You are your own jailer. Nightshade looks suspicious at the Raven as they land. The Raven has now transformed into the Goddess. A tall beautiful Lady with long curly black her and a red dress. Nightshade is in her humanform. Feels lost as she looks at the powerful goddess. No use in trying to escape now.
-I know you don't believe me.But for what reason would I imprison you. For what reason would you be here in the eternal suffering in this hell dimension as you call it.
-Karma stuff I must endure, suffer cause of my wrong doings. There are people who are much worser then me. But they aren't punished. Getting any karma issues. It is just me. Who shall suffer, being tormented.
-You aren't being punished. Karma is not about being punished. It is about righting the wrongs. Do it again do be better. Learn from the past. What you send out you get back.
-Maybe not punishment but that is what it feels like. Cause I will never be good enough in your eyes. Not good enough to be free. To get out of here.
-And how can you look at it different? How can you get out of here? I already said I am not keeping you here as prisoner. But you dont believe me. Yes you have to be here but not for the reason believe and yes there is a way out. How will you find it.
-I don't know break free, dye trying. When I am dragged back to the cell I be dead. My spririt will be free.

-Are you sure about that? That you will be free from this after death? What if you are back here? Will be down here for good with me? That's what you fear, little girl! That you will live this cycle over and over. That you will never be free? That you are trapped here in the this nightmare forever?
Nightshade starts to cry. Curls up in a ball. She thinks- thing is that this is torture to suffer like this. This is not mercy. I don't get why I don't get out or why I am stuck here. Goddess, you are not the one who is so depressed so sad all the time often on the verge or either tears or rage. Who is trapped here, where life has stopped. The strange sick thing is that I am just as depressed with you as I was with Jesus. Felt I was in the same darkness, that I was doomed  to hell mostly. One day i just left him for good when I found you.  A while I really believed I would get a better life. Be happy, free and joyful. What a fool I was. I guess you all enjoyed it, how stupid i was for believing. If I had know that this eternal darkness awaited me I would have left you or committed suicide a long time ago.
- What do you mean, what are you saying?
-Nevermind
-What?
-I am sorry, I shouldn't have said something. I should just accept this cruel fate, this cruel life.
Sorry that I mentioned it. Nightshade hides her face as she cries harder. She is numb. An empty shell of her former self.

New blog, will still be keeping thew old one as well

This blog is focused on my journey out of the void, the eternal misery, depression, pain, suffering the void, darkness is for me with The Goddess. It will be much poetry. I try to avoid Writing to dark depressive things. I know darkness is not eternal misery and suffering for everyone. But for me it is. It is also healing there. I just sick of always be stuck here in this misery, depression. I dont give much for this journeys visdom. That is so important. (can your hear the sarcasm?) I rather be happy experience joy. But no not for me. I have been in this darkness, the void for many years. I have more fitting names for the void, darkness like living hell. I know not so creative. But thats what it is, that what it feels like. I am bit pessimistic I guess. I would do anything to be in the light more. Feel joy and happiness. It truly bothers me that I always in the darkness yearning for the light and never reaching it. I am happy that serveral others followers of The Dark Goddess seem to be happy. It is possible it is wrong of me to yearn for the light when i follow Her. She choose me, claimed me as Hers. She has helped me alot. I am happy to be Hers. I am just miserable with this eternal darkness, the void that I never get out from. It is just so cruel. I dont deserve that. I am a good person. I deserve to be happy, to have joy. I refuse to spend eternity in this void, the darkness I will fight my way out, rather die trying then be in the void, darkness forever suffering. I dont Think I will be released, be free from the void, the darkness. Probably others are more deserving of joy, happiness then me. But I dont care anymore. I am done with redeeming for some bad karma I have- what other cause than that are keeping me here. It is not fair. Perhaps I am just too weak, thats why the void this eternal darkness is so painful for me, I am so depressed, panicy and anxious.

Below I am sharing lyrics to my favorite songs. And no the songs dont make me more depressed more like it gives me the feeling that someone understads my pain, how I feel. And I keep walking. Hopefully I will reach the light soon. And be allowed to live there.


My favorite song Fade to Black  by Metallica says it all about how I feel at times in this void

Life it seems will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else

I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel

Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking down
I was me but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself
But it's too late
Now I can't think
Think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though
It never existed
Death greets me warm
Now I will just say goodbye


Estranged - my favorite song by Guns N Roses. Pain misery like I feel and have felt a lot in Life.

 When you're talkin' to yourself
And nobody's home
You can fool yourself
You came in this world alone
(Alone)

So nobody ever told you baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to you baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see
One, two

Old at heart but I'm only twenty eight
And I'm much too young
To let love break my heart
Young at heart but it's getting much too late
To find ourselves so far apart

I don't know how you're s'posed to find me lately
An what more could you ask from me
How could you say that I never needed you
When you took everything
Said you took everything from me

Young at heart an it gets so hard to wait
When no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I musn't hesitate
If I'm to find my own way out

Still talkin' to myself
And nobody's home
(Alone)

So nobody ever told us baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see

When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I'll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I'll get it right next time
An now that you've been broken down
Got your head out of the clouds
You're back down on the ground

And you don't talk so loud
An you don't walk so proud
Any more, and what for

Well I jumped into the river
Too many times to make it home
I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone
If it doesn't show give it time
To read between the lines

'Cause I see the storm getting closer
And the waves they get so high
Seems everything we've ever known's here
Why must it drift away and die

I'll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I'll have to make it through, this time - oh this time
Without you
I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we've ever known's here
I never wanted it to die


Mercy by Pararadise Lost I just love this one

You live for times of solace
Within a sign there's a promise
Don't lose all faith cause you shake at night
It's in the art of the process

In another rhyme beyond this place
The healing's fast enough
Done a thousand times a thousand ways until
You've had enough

It's mercy you're asking for cheating life
By taking more it's mercy you're asking for
Take my life or give me more
The loss of prize possession to cure the mind's obsession
Could trade your soul for that normal life
Elite to all objections

See beyond all tears and broken years your senses giving up
Lose all confidence at your expense your courage swallows up


Gothic by Paradise Lost-how it feels when I have anxiety and panic attacks

Denying our restlessness
Frustrations tension eludes
The past was clean
Where thoughts were mild
The present day horrors alive

Slowly passing timeless horrors

Lives within all fear
The mourning in my tears
Drown all the past
We lived beneath these years
Awaiting for the call
For all life to expire
Passive to this day
To infinity we'll fail [sings: "fall"]

The light is dim before us
Shadows appear and fall
A barrage of savage ways
Only the darkness can filter through

(Awaiting for the call
For all life to expire
Passive to this day
To infinity we'll fall
Lives within all fear
The mourning in my tears
Drown all the past
We lived beneath these years)